I like to think that my drawings are made in this way:
a bit of sudden inspiration, a lot of passion, lots of blank pages, some hearts, a pencil and a cute puppet. I'm behind them, but in reality my drawings are self-made. I'm aware of them only at work finished...



My puppet is called Num, pronunced ['Num], like dOOm ['dum].
He's a little plushie guy, alone in the world, with too many dreams and a very big heart. But his greatest dream is to find someone, to know love.
He isn't scared easily, due to a bit of too much naivety. Although his worst fear is to remain alone, to be hurt again and again.
Also, he's ruled by emotions and befriends every kind of creature, from mushrooms, to pigs, to carnivorous plants.



( Usually I draw with... )


( . Where to find Me )

So, I finally made the first step and improved my life! I was sick of complaining about my life without actually doing nothing. And I must say I now am a more satisfied girl. With less and less time to be around my virtual world but with the new impression that dreams aren't the only hope in my future :)


.So awfully sorry. by `Nonnetta on deviantART

I can't breathe. I think I'm starting to hyperventilate.
And I am to blame. I'm the first reason sadness is crushing me.

Title: .All-consuming love.
Artist: Me
Description: Reality doesn't meet your expectations...

( Where was the all-consuming love? )

 So, my application for an Erasmus year in England wasn't accepted. On the contrary my flatmate is going to live 9 months in Spain, and I'm a bit sad.
The problem is I started to believe in this opportunity probably because everyone around me was sure I would have been chosen. So I was a bit disappointed reading I wasn't chosen.
It was a big dream of mine, but well you must carry on with life! :]
I hope there will be some changes in the near future and, in particular, that I will able to make the right decisions in the following months. In the meantime I'm going to study for this year exams at uni.
Probably I will go abroad in the summer, and who knows, next year it may be the lucky one to leave for some time! 

Title: Victim of a dream.
Artist: Me
Description: I thought I was on the verge of fulfilling my old dream of fly away and build a new life. 
I never realised it was all in my mind, far-off from reality.

( .Victim of a dream. )

 For a long time I was away from here. Sadly, I think in the next week I will be more far away than ever between exams (starting in a month) and personal life. In particular this was a really depressing period of my life that I really hope is going to improve!

Anyway, I don't have the time, nor the ispiration, to draw anything apart from a little something to wish everyone a Happy Easter.

Title: . S u r p r i s e s .
Artist: Nonnetta
Description: Life is full of surprises sometimes...

( . S u r p r i s e s . )


Happy Easter to everyone! :]

First thing I've drawn in weeks. 
The little white things on Num's head and on the plant are bunnies! I hope you can say they are bunnies XD

( I posted 2 version because I couldn't decide between the two, even if on dA I posted the blue one ).

I've been thinking a lot while working on Happiness vs Serenity.

For two days now I'm feeling like I'm going crazy.
Everything annoys me. I can't stand anyone, friends and flatmates are only a nuisance. And the friends I've left at home aren't available at all but through sms, when I would like to spend time with them.
I'm tired, I want to curl in bed and lay there for the rest of the day. Or maybe physically hurt somebody. But I prefer the former!
My sentimental life is a mess and I would like to cut what confuses and hurts me. People don't understand, they are stubborn and selfish in their desires.

I wish I could take a holiday!

Title: .Heart's dream.
Artist: Nonnetta (Me)
Description:  Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dream.  ( Paulo Coelho - The Alchemist )

( .Heart's dream. )

I had time to think and clear some of the confusion occluding my mind. Now I'm more serene, even if a bit sad because some decisions involve other people and I know they won't be happy...

At least the flu is gone, and I'm better. The only thing is that I'm coughing a lot, particularly when I laugh or if I don't find a comfortable position while sleeping -.-

Besides, I'm again a bit anxious for lessons start at uni after the exams break. Uhm, I don't feel like following lessons everyday, but since I had followed almost nothing durind the first semester, I' ve promised myself to try my best in this second one. This means - in particular - improve in and stop to run from French lessons! I'm having nightmares about French, because for 6 months and more now I haven't wrote, spoken or studied anything regarding French and in May exams start ç_ç

After all, I must say it is a moment of peace, and I really hope it isn't the calm before the storm!

Title: .Make this go on forever.
Artist: Nonnetta (Me)
Description: It's a state of peace during wich I have only time to be lost in dreams.
I don't need anything or anyone.

( .Make this go on forever. )

St. Valentine's Day is a day I don't particularly like. As you can't celebrate your love every other day!
Anyway I thought it was a good pretext to post something, even if the following drawing was made more than 6 months ago. In truth, it's the first of a little serie of drawing, all related to each other for the theme.

Title: .Everything you need.
Artist: Nonnetta (Me)
Description: Everything you need is already inside...

( .Everything you need. )

Tomorrow morning I'm going to return to uni and the city where I live during semesters.
This time I'm really anxious and sad to go back there. I simply know there will be problems. I don't understand people, they don't understand me; I should live on a desert island on my own - only a laptop as friend.
Obviously I don't feel like studying and exams are due to start on the 15th -.-
Less time to draw, to be on the web, to start again photographing; less sleep.
The only good thing is that I'm going to give a new touch to my room, it will finally scream of me! (More or less). I'm tired to live in a blank room with only a plushie Gaara on the window resembling something like personality.
At least I hope to do well on my exams. I still haven't decided how many of them to take between January and February but I'm near a decision, so keep your finger crossed! :P

Happy New Year!

Title: .Dark tranquillity.
Artist: Nonnetta (aka paranoid-tear)
Description: I'm so tired of all this waiting - and the quiet - don't you feel like screaming?

( .Dark tranquillity. )



Title: . D r e a m s .
Artist: Nonnetta (aka paranoid-tear)
Description: I have too many dreams, and the newest is to make you happy.
I want to give you a dream.

( . D r e a m s . )

Title: .The puppet who didn't want to be sad.
Artist: Nonnetta (aka paranoid-tear)
Description: There once was a puppet who didn't want to be sad. So he made a decision. He made a plan. The plan was to get rid of everything that made him sad..   ( The boy who didn't want to be sad - Rob Goldblatt )

( .The puppet who didn't want to be sad. )


Title: .Fragile.
Artist: Nonnetta (aka paranoid-tear)
Description: I'm so scared of being hurt..
I don't live, I hide myself and my emotions.

( .Fragile. )

Title: .No more sorrow.
Artist: Nonnetta (aka paranoid-tear)
Description: Love is dangerous, he thought.

( .No more sorrow. )

Title: .Pain of life.
Artist: Nonnetta (aka paranoid-tear)
Description: Sometimes I think emotions are only a nuisance, especially when they seem to slowly destroy you from inside.
Sometimes I would like to lock them away.

( .Pain of life. )

I haven't drawn anything in a long time. I'm a bit rusty, sorry!
These two pic were made the other day. Hope you like them anyway :]

Merry Christmas to everyone! <3

Title: .Great Expectations.
Artist: Nonnetta (aka paranoid-tear)
Description:At that time there were lots of things I wished for. - Nana ch 17

( .Great expectations. )

Title: .You belong to me.
Artist: Nonnetta (aka paranoid-tear)
Description:I know very well that it's impossible to think that someone belongs to us... But from time to time I seem to find that incredibly sad... - Nana

( .You belong to me. )